In Pseudoscience, the third Monday of January is considered the the most depressing day of the year known as Blue Monday. Today was not the third Monday. but Somehow, I feel its Blue Monday. Wiki
A lot of the reading sites I go to have articles about being positive, on how to evaluate yourself or in short not to give nor see yourself as crap. A lot of people (including myself), hide their sadness and depression. Putting a mask of humor to the tears behind the eyes. Lets be honest, no matter how many people tell us how to be happy its just a load of crap. We are all insecure. We can pretend to be happy and the best person in the whole damn world but deep inside we hate ourselves even more than the worst critic. Who gives a sheet anyways?
I don't know what else to write so I'll just put a lot of videos.
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile
Gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry
