I was watching Howl’s Moving Castle, trying to get my mood to lighten up. I made a papercraft of that Castle before. I had to throw it away because the paper was deteriorating and it was huge. I might make it again; I dunno maybe I won’t. So watched that movie again, its one of my favorite Studio Ghibli movies... happy endings, things turning out for the better... do you meet that one person randomly or does the universe actually have it set since the beginning? Sometimes you just want to live inside the movies.
Depressing feelings has been on record high today. Is life pointless? Will we forever feel stuck? Even though they said don’t compare yourself to other people. You see people of same age and same level in their craft... they’ve achieved a lot... then there’s me. Am I trap or did I trap myself? I want to do something else but then I don’t know the real me to know what I want to do.
Anyways this gloomy feeling still hasn’t gone down. It won’t leave; it’s been with me since I could remember.
