GOOD EVENING DISTINGUISHED PANEL OF JUDGES. I AM ONE PERSON OF MANY AND A PLETHORA OF DIFFERENT VERSIONS OF ME IN MY HEAD. THIS IS MY SHOW, I AM THE VOICE-OVER NARRATOR THAT GIVES THE COMMENTARIES TO THINGS THAT ARE HAPPENING AROUND ME. COME AND READ ALL ABOUT IT.
THIS IS A DIARY. THIS IS A JOURNAL. THESE ARE THE VOICES IN MY HEAD.
Thursday, May 10, 2018
20180510 - Self Destruct?
Today is a weird day. It is one of those days when you suddenly do something that you know damn well will sabotage or destroy yourself. So I made a mistake in the office. I know damn well it will all fall apart and still went ahead and did it. It is also one of those moments when you are trying to fix it, you feel the regret but before it happened and after it happened you are hollow like no emotions or fear because you know its all downhill and hell. Expectations keep it accurate and relatable.
This is my theme song for today, when all falls apart and you are down in hell; heaven if you are delusional or high. I remember reading somewhere that this song was for Cyndi’s son but sounds a lot like a eulogy song but its just me; I’m weird.
So yeah, I’m in a unconsciously self sabotaging myself... I don’t want to break but at times the unconscious spirit is trying to meddle with the conscious world to bring forth what I am really feeling inside.
