Anxiety and worry has full on kicked in. The more I research into this secret endeavour the more I get anxious, worried and pessimistic. Its like getting more information is great but how my brain functions is to automatically jump into failure. My spirit is like "OMG this is it! We're gonna get it!" but my brain is like "shit, I am not gonna get this. I'm gonna get in trouble or disqualified or rejected". It is definitely a struggle up here in my coconut. I am hoping all goes well, this is something that I want to happen and it took years to get to this point. It will be a huge bummer if this doesn't go well.
I get tomorrow off, but then have to go back to work on Tuesday and Wednesday. I don't really know what I am feeling. It's the anticipation that is giving me the nerves. At the end of the day, I know that I can do it and survive. Argh! I really want it to happen!
I love House Tours. One day. Some Day. I will have my own huge house too. Unlike most people who are more concerned about the resell value. I just want house that I will live in and be comfortable in.
Fingers crossed!!! I hope nothing goes wrong. So... ciao!
Fingers crossed!!! I hope nothing goes wrong. So... ciao!
