GOOD EVENING DISTINGUISHED PANEL OF JUDGES. I AM ONE PERSON OF MANY AND A PLETHORA OF DIFFERENT VERSIONS OF ME IN MY HEAD. THIS IS MY SHOW, I AM THE VOICE-OVER NARRATOR THAT GIVES THE COMMENTARIES TO THINGS THAT ARE HAPPENING AROUND ME. COME AND READ ALL ABOUT IT.
THIS IS A DIARY. THIS IS A JOURNAL. THESE ARE THE VOICES IN MY HEAD.
Its the last day of the decade, so I should post. It will not be epic I am not that good. I am looking forward and hoping for the best in the new decade. A lot has happened in the last decade. I experienced a lot of firsts and completely breaking into the adult world. In the coming of the new decade I do hope I get more firsts and hopefully more good and great things would happen.
So New Year means new Channel ID video. Most of my SNS is updated. Hopefully, 2020 I am more creative, more colorful and definitely still corrupted. Ciao!
My tradition is to play this Christmas song by Hurts. It is a heartbreak song. I love it. It sounds good. It is my forever mood. Depressing and jump to edge.
Also to watch my Favourite Christmas Movie of all Time. That is, A Garfield Christmas Special. I love the Garfield 80's series. The story is simple, it has soul and it has heart. It is one of the best thing that came out of that era and I am proud to grow up with it. I or the movie sound cheesy but Goddammit I am proud of it.
So I edited my 2020 Channel ID again. I was watching it yesterday and I kinda felt the music was not doing it for me. So I went to Google royalty free music and fortunately and finally I think I found the one. I think this is it. I am happy with it. It will be published on New Year's Eve right when the clock strikes. I have posted a Teaser yesterday.
I should be getting the Nintendo Switch Online subscription. As usual though, I am procrastinating. Not on my Merch marketing videos though. I have uploaded more promotional videos for my Christmas line. Maybe someone will buy it... next year LOL.
So I saw the new Star Wars Movie. I haven't seen the other 2 before it. Do I need it before watching the new one? No. Do I regret not watching the previous 2? No. I got a Pin, a Star Wars Pin. It says Opening Night but I guess it was poorly planned so they gave it for IMAX viewers. Oh that's right, I watched the IMAX version. Was it worth it? I guess. My theatre was one of the cheapest err... I mean Affordable in the area.
Back to work tomorrow but no working on Christmas because I refused to. It is one thing to step in but to assume that I would be me automatically doing the shift is unfair. Everybody has to take turns or at least negotiate. A year of basically being thrown into it is enough.
Anyway back to my day today, I have Outback for High Tea. It was alright but I am still mystified as why the servers in these Western establishments has no grasp on basic English. It is really beyond my understanding. Ugh! Anyway. Ciao!
I get my rest days starting tomorrow. The Holiday has definitely possessed my body. I am lazy to move or work.
I don't what I'm doing really so I'll just post some Christmas songs. Like I said before I am no longer Christian or adjacent but I did grow up with this tradition. So that means... Buy my Merch!
Holiday Mood has arrived. Don't have much enthusiasm to work. Should I do more Christmas?... Maybe New Year will be more logical to do. Christmas is too close to be making more and people are pretty much done with their shopping. Celebrating 2020 with new designs I think will be a more wise strategy.
2020 let's bring some more good luck and more good news. Is this my "that major life change at mid-30" phenomenon thingy that I forgot what it is called? I hope so. Anyway, it will come to me in a few days so... Ciao!
So I did an impromptu Christmas Merch collection. I wasn't originally making designs other than dress up my PIGGY as Santa Claus. Once I finished Santa Claus PIGGY I thought I should dress up my Doll as well and from there, one doll became three. So now available is my "It's a Mean Girls X-mas!" collection on my TeePublic Store.
My anxieties are still hanging around. The battle in my head is a half is going "Don't fuck this up" and the other half is "You are gonna fuck this up". Ugh! This is one of the reasons I would rather surround me with music or shows or videos so the voices in my head doesn't take over. Work again tomorrow. Hopefully, everything goes fine and I don't go insane. I hope there are some good news.
I just got my online shopping haul. I got a neon green hoodie and an orange one too. I wanted to get one from San Francisco but they didn't have the shade of neon green that I wanted. It was either to pale or too dark. Anyway, now I have one so I am happy. I got some accessories for my Nintendo Switch. A USB-C Hub Dongle. I have to clear out my stuff too. Get rid of some old clothes and stuff that I have been hoarding for a long time.
Anxiety and worry has full on kicked in. The more I research into this secret endeavour the more I get anxious, worried and pessimistic. Its like getting more information is great but how my brain functions is to automatically jump into failure. My spirit is like "OMG this is it! We're gonna get it!" but my brain is like "shit, I am not gonna get this. I'm gonna get in trouble or disqualified or rejected". It is definitely a struggle up here in my coconut. I am hoping all goes well, this is something that I want to happen and it took years to get to this point. It will be a huge bummer if this doesn't go well.
I get tomorrow off, but then have to go back to work on Tuesday and Wednesday. I don't really know what I am feeling. It's the anticipation that is giving me the nerves. At the end of the day, I know that I can do it and survive. Argh! I really want it to happen!
I love House Tours. One day. Some Day. I will have my own huge house too. Unlike most people who are more concerned about the resell value. I just want house that I will live in and be comfortable in.
Fingers crossed!!! I hope nothing goes wrong. So... ciao!
So it's back to the waiting game. BUT. I had to tell some people to keep a hush hush on unconfirmed or pending confirmation information. So I got that sorted out.
I dunno I'm just posting people's vlogs. I am intrigued by the Mercedes Benz G Wagon. I think that would be my choice for a Luxury type of car. Realistically, I would like a Hybrid SUV as a future car for me. I can't with sedans it is too small for me. I like a roomy vehicle and I don't like driving like I am lying down. Why some people think that is comfortable? I don't know. I think that is so prone to a crash.
It is not my birthday but of a close friend. It has been almost 10 years... or it has been 10 years already. Time do flies fast. Work life has taken over mine.
So I got some news or updates on one of my endeavours and I am not really sure how I will feel yet. I am nervous, anxious, excited and happy. I guess it hasn't hit me yet. Also there are a couple more hurdles so its not exactly a celebration yet.
My company just had our Christmas/Annual dinner. I intentionally hid from the team pic that I forgot where exactly stood. I was so ninja about it that there was no trace of even though I am big and fat. It is insane. Am I a ghost? Did I die? Why was there no hint of me anywhere? I guess I am really that good.
I am watching Shane Dawson's Ghost hunting videos. I love these kind of videos and also depends on who is doing the ghost hunting because some YouTubers their personality I don't really like or it doesn't mesh with mine. So I can't completely enjoy the video.
I go back to work tomorrow. Hopefully the holiday season has fully kicked in and no stress is thrown at me. Huh. I didn't noticed it is Friday the 13th today, and here I am posting ghost videos sub-consciously I think I know. Anyway. Good night and ciao!
It is holiday season. I'm not Christian but I grew up in a Catholic environment so Christmas decorations is more a habit than a religious thing for me. I still the ones I put up last year around the house... I never took it down. Should I put up some more?
Resident Evil 3 remake has been announced. I have never played that game. I think I play more video games now than when I was younger. I am Benjamin Buttoning! NOT! LOL! I still have a couple more games in queue to play. I got a lot of ports and remakes. It is sad that those are the games that worth playing. I am a big classic franchise player. I love them and pretty much stick to the ones I have been playing.
Finally time to relax, the short 3 days of relaxing.
I saw double numbers on the time on my phone today. Coincidently saw 09:09 and its is Dec 9 so thats like 9 9 9. Then I saw 12:12 on a Dec (12) so its triple 12. If its a good sign... show up already.
The year is almost over. The decade is almost over. Fingers crossed things go my way. I hope it's not another distraction to keep me quiet. If it is I will be so pissed... I don't know what I will do.
I miss San Francisco already but each time I go is also a bit bittersweet. Is the grass really greener on the other side? I really would like a big change. I think it would do me good to have a sort of reset and new beginning. I'm definitely not expecting a change would bring about positive things but it at least will be a refreshing new start.
I don't really know what I'm saying anymore just post more creepy videos. So good night and ciao!
After the storm, there has been a few rainbows. My nephew didn't cry when I visited unlike the last few times I visited. Yes, it made me feel bad. My Teepublic made a sale. I don't sell a lot so seeing even just one sale is pretty exciting. A few little positive things to bring the spirit up and not fucking waste everybody.
I completed a lot of stuff too. I completed my Udemy Course to learn how to use Procreate. I finally completed Pokemon Sword. I guess you can call it being productive.
I don't know what else to blog. Let's leave it there. Ciao
