20190131 - Blue Blood Moon... What?

Supposedly, there's a blue blood... blood eclipse... red moon blue super... I don't know something is happening with the moon tonight.  I saw the moon coming home but then clouds started to gather because its been raining all fucking day.  Like imagine cold winter day and rain.  Don't get me wrong I love and prefer cold weather but just don't combine it with rain.  Its unbearable.

So, my documentary watching has now ventured into country singer artist documentaries.  Today was Loretta Lynn,  how did I get to her documentary?  Well.  So.  Okay.  I like to watch paranormal stuff on YouTube and on the side are the autoplay related videos.  Apparently Loretta Lynn lives in a Haunted House in Tennessee.  Unlike other Ghost Story where the person telling the story is all "OMG the ghost ruined my life; it raped me and abused me", Loretta was very positive about the ghosts/spirits in her house.  So that's very refreshing.  It didn't bother her and I think in a way she was able to harness the powers of the Ghosts to help her in life.  That is some spooky shit, but I came from a 3rd world country so I am sort of superstitious.

The first 10 minutes of the next episode of Rupaul's Drag Race All Stars 3 is up.  I am excited.  I am so #teamtrixie if you check my Instagram there's a lot of Trixie Mattel.  He is so cute in her confessional.  Is it confusing? He? Her?  They are Drag Queens it shouldn't matter.  There are still some who are overly sensitive, like very passive-aggressive always acting like the victim while attacking you.  Anyways, Brian Firkus.  Trixie Mattel.  I hope she wins this episode.

#trixiemattel #teamtrixie #brianfirkus #rupaulsdragrace #allstars3 #rupaulsdragraceallstars3 #ohhoney #unhhh

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20190130 - 6 degrees weather

Woke up to a 6 degrees morning.

Can I just stay in bed all curled up in my blanket/duvet/comforter or whatever you want to call it?

Oh and by the way, my sister found Celestial Seasonings Tension Tamer tea and I love it.  This tea is great it has cinnamon and catnip then a whole bunch of other plants, it taste good; I don't know it does tame tension.  It is not strong and weird like those Indian chai/tea.  First time I had, I slept the whole night.  I'm not sure if its because of the Tension Tamer tea but I had a good sleep that night.

I'm still having weird deja-vu dreams.  Does that make sense?  Deja-vu is like experiencing something familiar and that has happened somewhere in or of other existence.  Deja-vu dreams for me is like I feel like I was in this dream before.  I forgot my dream this morning.  Yes, I said this morning.  I have 4 alarms in the morning.  So in between those alarms I would have different dreams.  If I remember the dream though, I would look the meaning of it.  I mean I know those meanings are not really accurate or true but its some sort of entertainment/affirmation.  I use Dream Moods, they seem to have less "Duh" meanings.  Google it.

20180129 - January almost over

Weather has turned again, so its cold again.  Thank Goodness!  I love and prefer cold weather but like I've said before the only thing I don't like in Hong Kong is that it rains when its cold and it sucks.  I have to go to work still... I just want to roll up in my blankets and stay in bed.

Everything is starting to be a blur though... I mean haven't I been in a blur.  I'm not in focus but at least not yet self-destructive that I usually am.  I still aspire to be Karen Walker; like rich and no longer gives a shit or can be no shits to give.

I'm in such a blur that even my creativity is at a blur.  Hobbies get affected too...  like... literally What The Fuck is going on?

20180128 - It is not 2019

This year is kinda odd, most of the times when the new year hits the error is writing the previous year.  In my case, it isn't because I keep writing 2019.  I don't know but maybe it is a sign that I am not liking 2018 already and want it to be over soon.  I am having repetitive dreams too.  Well my dreams repeat like randomly; sometimes they are even fortune telling.  I am no psychic so don't call my hotline.  But this morning was kinda special, it was nice to see someone again in my dreams.

After a few days of obsessing with Trixie Mattel, her new single is now available in iTunes and I just couldn't resist it and bought it.  You should too.



I got some housework done today... well kinda.  I bought a new car windshield cover and some basket for organizing house shit.  So far they are great.  I'm gonna start to cleanup and throw away some unneeded stuff.  I have so many useless shit.

While looking at my iTunes library, I forgot I got the "Love of Siam" OST.  Yes, I was into Thailand stuff for a short period of time.  I am very more in to mood swings unlike people who are die-hard of one thing.  So I was into J-pop, K-pop, Thai pop, and then not including musical genre.  I go in and out of them mostly because of my mood.  If the music captures my mood at that time, I would seem to be obsessed with it; but not permanent.  Once the mood fades, the obsession fades.  But with Thailand movies, I mean.  Bitch.  The stories are fucked up, I mean fucked up in way that the twist ending is so unexpected and so not "American Dream" ending.  I mean I like it because it realistic but also it fucks with you like that movie "Graveyard of Fireflies".  Oh my gosh,  I can only watch that once.  I need to catch up some new movies too.

20180127 - COLORFUL

So as you know, I have redesigned the website after procrastinating on it for... um.. I don't know.... 2 years?  Creative and Corrupted were back up since early this month.  Yesterday, after a miraculous hit of enthusiasm; Colorful is now also online.  The new model that I came up with is that Creative features the Youtube Shows, Colorful will be for business related, commision work requests and such; then Corrupted is my blog.  So all 3 sections are now up.

In other news I got 3 mini We Bare Bears dolls from Miniso that I will put on display on my car.  The are the cutest.

#webarebears #miniso #bears #brothers #cute

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Only 1 more off day, I wish there were more.  So looking forward for the next episode of Rupaul's Drag Race All Stars; I hope Trixie wins this challenge.  I put Trixie on my Car Audio and I have to say, country is so good to listen to while driving.  It gives you that feeling of a roadtrip thru the desert feeling.

20180126 - End of the week

It is end of the week, I am feeling much better but with a hint of disappointment.  It is fine but life kinda needs a re-evaluation.  If only life has a reset button like in the video games or a save point.  I need more coffee.  I had a short Coffee withdrawal period and it wasn't by choice; it was more because I couldn't make more coffee to drink.  I need to remember to get my International Driver's license next week.

All Stars 3!!! #teamtrixie definitely and absolutely.  Her performing Moving Parts was the best and it was so touching.  I felt... mainly because most the other queens pretty much did the same thing.


I don't know why Thorgy was high with a violin while Trixie singing and playing a autoharp wasn't.  The reading challenge was so good.  Trixie and Dela really killed.  Overall Dela was top but I think my favorite was from Trixie.  So Bebe was added to the cast she was good, I like her in the cast.  Back to Trixie, she was being a real Hill Billy from the backwoods reading Morgan while discussing elimination strategies.  Aja was great as well on this episode.  She just brought the bitch and drama that was missing from Season 9.

I can't wait for the next episode.

@trixiemattel !!! #dollyparton #teamtrixie #allstars3 #rupaulsdragrace #rupaulsdragraceallstars3

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20180125 - Fried Chicken

I love fried chicken.  KFC had a special of HK$50 for 6 pieces of chicken; available after 6 PM only Monday and Tuesday.  I ate the last piece today, it Thursday.  It is a good deal to be quite honest.

It is January 25 here in HK but not yet in the US.  So there is still no RPDR All Stars 3 yet.  I just want to get that out of the way.

So unbearable 2018 is still on-going.  All the anxieties, worries, and fears are at a record high.  It is annoying to because on some level it is crippling to my own existence.  I hope the Butterfly Effect happens on a positive way because Karma is a bitch and she has not let me go for the past 8-10 years.  I admit I am not the best person in the world but I am not the worst.  Its annoying when you always help people but seem to always just get the bad luck while people who treat me and other people bad seems to have more blessings in life.  Ugh! Annoying.  Even my documentaries are not entertaining me or distracting me and it is kind of scaring me a bit because it takes you to the edge.

Hoping for a miracle, a saviour, I'm hoping for something else; something better.  I want to do something else and also take a spiritual break to heal my psyche or aura; whatever that mumbo jumbo is called.

20180124 - Cold Front

The weather has turned and gotten colder again.  I thought I didn't wear enough clothes.  Nope, I was wrong.  One thing I hate about Hong Kong Weather is that it is constantly changing during winter.  It is like cold for 1-2 days then suddenly will be warm and then drop again.  It changes in an instant and it is very annoying.

In other news, Trixie is on my iPod and I have been listening to her "Two Birds" Album.  Its a great Folk Country album very different from Drag Queen Music which is usually all Dance songs and bitch tracks.  Don't get me wrong though, I love Alaska's music too.  Trixie is definitely a musician she got some good acoustic covers.

I can't wait for All Stars to start so I would have some distractions.

I haven't really been talking about anything else except my anticipation for All Stars.

20180123 - Forgetful

Another day but not in paradise.

I forgot to do some stuff like pay my CC bill.

Sigh...

On a lighter note, the first 14 minutes of the new Rupaul's Drag Race All Stars 3 was released today.  So that lightened up my day, something to look... or watch; finally.  The full episode airs on Friday in Hong Kong Time.


My brain is still exhausted, is this a sign?  I think it is a sign but obligations and responsibilities... Sigh.

20180122 - WTF is going on this day

It is one of those days when nothing is working or going right.

I am exhausted. I am really sick and tired of this. Why can't I be like the irresponsible people who can just drop and leave everything?

 I am just watching the mini trailers of Rupaul's Drag Race All Stars 3, I really think that is what gonna get me through this next few weeks. I didn't post anything yesterday because nothing happened. I just watched a marathon of Rupaul's Drag Race.

I was so exhausted today, luckily, I got a seat on the train and was able to take a nap and now I'm gonna sleep.

20180120 - Two Birds

A new season of RuPaul's Drag Race All Stars premiers next week.  Finally, something I would be watching and wait for Trixie Mattel to win.

Speaking of Trixie Mattel been listening to her album, its a great country fold album but; only 6 songs?  She is coming up with a new follow-up album after All Stars.  So... wink wink she wins as the reddit rumours reports.  She covered some songs that are not in the album which are also fabulous specifically, Cover Girl by RuPaul and Time After Time by Cyndi Lauper.  Aside from Trixie, I have been obsessed with the sneak peeks of All Stars 3.

So a lot of Drag Queens but that doesn't mean I stop watching my Documentaries.  Today I watched the Aileen Wuornos Documentary.  I dunno watching these documentaries is also kinda educational because you get to observe crazy people.  It is helpful in the long run because you can then identify sociopaths, psychopaths and just plain homeless bums.

So tomorrow is Sunday, I might go grocery shopping.. maybe not.  It all depends on the mood.

20180119 - Documentaries and Fridays

Friday is here again, same place and same circumstances.

I am still watching documentaries.  I have seen a couple of serial killer/murder documentaries at the end of last year and today I was watching/playing a lot at work.  So I went from paranormal to psychological,  I dunno it calms me down.  It stops you from thinking about the real life.

I'm not destructive or anything, but sometimes you stumble upon something and it gets your attention.  Distractions; a way to deal with life.  Psychological evaluation is interesting, at least at this point in my life.  It makes me think, I'm still psychologically stronger than most people.

Its the weekend.

20180118 - Where art thou motivation

So I’m still in this downhill ride to depression.  My mood hasn’t changed still feeling the failure of life.

You know you are super depressed when the usual things thar get you in a better mood doesn’t work. I have been enjoying Movie Bitches channel on YouTube.  Sad as it sounds its like the friendship I kinda long for.

Sigh... where art thou motivation.

20180117 - New Year New End

So.  We are still in the first month of 2018 and I already have to rethink, re-evaluate and breathe.  Life as we know it; is depressing.  A lot of stuff in life we could not control, and yes, we made those decisions ourselves but most of the times its always a decision setup for failure.  I dunno why I’m putting up Pete Burns’ Last interview but I guess it reflects my mood.  I feel like even though we look like we are succeeding at something; life is actually crumbling down in the background.

Will anything go right? Will anything work in your favor? At all?

So today, I received an email from YouTube telling me that I don’t have enough watch minutes nor subscribers. How encouraging.  Granted, I started the channel as a hobby and not as a money making scheme; it still feels like a back hand slap in the face.  Its like very reassuring, that I am full of shit and nobody gives a shit.  Moving on, the consequence?  No more monetization tools from YouTube.  So it makes you think, do you continue a pointless hobby? Do you keep going or just give it up?

I don’t know where I’ll take this project at this moment.  I still have content ready that could last this year and mid-2019 besides I also don’t know when will Google be blocked in. Hong Kong.  So I guess we’ll just have to see how this turns out.

20180116 - Chernobyl Reactor No.4

So Today, I watched a documentary about the Chernobyl Disaster.  I started to learn of Chernobyl just recently, I heard it just thrown around here and there but I didn't know what it really meant or what it referred to.  I just learned about the truth; nope, the story of Chernobyl maybe 2-3 years ago or maybe even more.  I think it was when Fukushima Nuclear Power Plant exploded.

I know I'm weird.  I'm self aware unlike most people.  So what I'm saying is that I sometimes would or can relate to this weird disasters.  I guess a few years ago I did have some anger issues a few years back; nothing serious or damaging, and now I feel like a ghost town inside, empty and a mess.

Nowadays I feel like an explorer trying to find the core of my soul, or better yet my soul.  Its difficult to be continuing to do something you know is not really your thing.  It is confusing and exhausting because I know its no longer for me but I don't know, I haven't discovered the real me.  Anyways, I am starting to spit out gibberish.  You can watch the documentary below.

20180115 - It is what it is

I was chatting with an old acquaintance, started with a little catching up then teasing and then things just got real.

I am not cynical, although I may sound like one.  A lot of times I would speak in my reality, if not everybody's.  I say things out of my observation of things; I'm slagging off anybody nor am I saying this thing or this person is bad.  I am saying stuff from my observation and understanding of the situation.  I guess a lot of people just think its being mean when its not.  It is what it is and I call it as it is.

On another note, watching a lot of documentaries.  It is my background noise; if you will, some people like news or radio.  I like music or documentaries, sometimes tv shows.  I was watching a PWL documentary and it brought me back to Kylie Minogue; I love her.  She has a lot of great songs in her catalog.  Jose Gonzalez has a good version of her song "Hand in your Heart"; his version was slowed down and acoustic.  Its fantastic.

20180114 - Hey Honey

Sunday Sunday Sunday

Lazy.  Cold.  Sleepy.

Washed the car, need some washing and waxing.

On a Will and Grace marathon, I totally miss Karen Walker.  She definitely is life goals.  She has no problems with money, no longer give and fucks.  I love her sharp tongue, thise reads and comebacks. Yes, they are harsh.  Yes, they are rude and crude.  That is exactly why I love her; in this age when everybody are just offended by everything.  Its refreshing and uplifting because its the fearlessness pretty much both her and no fear of retaliation.

There’s a new revival season of Will and Grace; it seems to be still good and unlike most revival shows it is better.  I’m not gonna watch it yet, I’ll wait when there are more episodes so I can binge watch.

Tomorrow back to work... why?...

20180113 - Everybody feels the same

Well its 2222 here in Hong Kong, watching Utada Hikaru's Wild Life concert.  I think is her best live concert because it was an ample amount of songs so she wasn't tired from all the songs she sang.

Its cold, I love the cold weather when its dry.  I love it.

I bought a lottery ticket, I didn't win; I don't think I ever won from the lottery.

Coffee.  Where art thou Coffee?

I caught up with some Adventure Time, caught up with my brother, caught with We Bare Bears.  I am tempted to get the We Bare Bears pillow dolls from Miniso... if only someone would give it to me as a gift.

Anyways, Saturday night.

20180111 - Its not Friday and it ain’t Wednesday

Its not Friday yet and it ain’t Wednesday.

Doing what I’m doing... still.

I always wonder how to do some people just go about working in a 9-5 job and yet would go around here and there like their 9-5 pay is like a lottery jackpot.

I guess I read this 7 year life change chakra BS.  This year I’m 35 another 7 years has passed and I’m expecting a major change for the better but thats not gonna happen.  I’m aware of it; I’m not delusional.  There is a major change going on just that its going downhill...

Coffee at night.

20180110 - CBB

I dunno why I’m watching Celebrity Big Brother UK but I guess its fascinating to watch people crumble and lose their minds.

It is annoying when people start shouting at each other.  It is fascinating how irrational and hypocritical people get when they are under high pressure.

As bad as it sounds, there’s a sort of feeling that is validating seeing other people be irrational and stupid; it kinda makes you feel normal and better than most people.

Anyways, I enjoy the Pete Burns season and the Mutya Buena Seasons.  I might watch other seasons but depends on how depressed and defeated I feel.

20180108 - Fortune tellings

Chinese/Lunar New Year is also around the corner.

Facebook showing fortunes of such and such signs.

My sign says “money will no longer be an issue.”  At this moment, I beg to differ.
The fortune closes with “as long as you plan it well for this year.”  You don’t say.

That’s a very believable fortune, Sir. Just Kidding. Its a Crock of Shit.

I’ll listen to some classic 80’s and 90’s music on Youtube.

Anyways life is the same, problems are the same and worries are still the same.

20180107 - First Sunday

First Sunday of the new year.  Nothing special same lazy Sunday; went out to eat with a friend.

Rain is still falling here and there.

Fried chicken.

Driving.

Cowgirl Coco. That would never happen. ~Coco Peru

20180106 - Rain Rain Rain

One thing I’m not a big fan of about HK’s weather is that; it rains on Winter.

The cold winds of Winter plus the painful feeling of that wet rain... its lile tiny little needles.  I love rain, it makes the atmosphere cold or chilly.  It sets that gloomy mood that is perfect for the emo mode looking out the window moments.  Rain is lovely but not when it’s Winter.

It would have been fine if it was snow, at least I could get to see the damn thing!

20180105 - Howl’s Moving Castle

I was watching Howl’s Moving Castle, trying to get my mood to lighten up.  I made a papercraft of that Castle before.  I had to throw it away because the paper was deteriorating and it was huge.  I might make it again; I dunno maybe I won’t.  So watched that movie again, its one of my favorite Studio Ghibli movies... happy endings, things turning out for the better... do you meet that one person randomly or does the universe actually have it set since the beginning?  Sometimes you just want to live inside the movies.

Depressing feelings has been on record high today.  Is life pointless? Will we forever feel stuck?  Even though they said don’t compare yourself to other people.  You see people of same age and same level in their craft... they’ve achieved a lot... then there’s me.  Am I trap or did I trap myself?  I want to do something else but then I don’t know the real me to know what I want to do.

Anyways this gloomy feeling still hasn’t gone down. It won’t leave; it’s been with me since I could remember.

20180104 - Fast Car mood

Its only the fourth day of 2018 and I am already in a Fast Car mood #TF.

If you don’t know what Fast Car is, I’ll tell you. Its a song by Tracy Chapman.  A very depressing song, its kinda like a song about hopelessness. It is like you put in all your effort but life just fucks you up real hardcore.  I can’t say its borderline suicidal, maybe it is or not you decide.

Anyways just keep pressing on as usual.

20180103 - Pimples and other annoying stuff

I got pimples! Also, that is not the worst of my problems... After 2017 happened, I was no longer excited nor optimistic about 2018 and so far; it has been disappointing and it has only been 3 days. Will this trend for this new year change soon?  I hope so.

Life is a challenge but right now it feels more like an obstacle than a challenge.  Its like if people ask you "what's wrong with you?"; the answer to that is "life".   Life is what's wrong with me.

Anyways, I'll keep this short and while I'm still cute with this mood swing.

20180102 - Theme for 2018

Hey Everybody! So, I'm gonna try to do this as much as I can; which I doubt will last that long because.. I'm lazy.

Anyways, so it is 2018 and we have a new Channel ID video.  For this year's theme, I decided to go a smokey route... *wink *wink.   So this year I used blowing smokes as a backdrop but with colors of course.  So I came up with this idea while working on making Paranormal or Abnormal a series.  Hopefully PoA could fly and I could make more videos for it.  Anyways, so, Paranormal blah blah blah, what is so paranormal? Wispy, misty and spirit-like hence the smokes.  To sort of promote PoA, I decided to make the channel ID sort of relate to PoA.

So not much to say and peace out!

20180101 - A New Beginning

Yes, the title is a very worn out cliche. I don't care. So its been more than 2 years since my last post and I am back to posting. So what has happened? What is new? We got new shows check out Creative section for the list of all the shows. Also switched from weekly to monthly publication. It actually helps a lot because this is a hobby and not a full time job so the extra time to work on videos really helps alot. I also finally updated website. We now have a smokey red theme and basic flat interface. I thought of making it more dynamic but going the flat route I thought would be easier to manage. So here we are, here is 2018. Cheers! To another shitty year! LOL!